Now Sykes tells Alternative Press: "My issues stemmed from the fact that I was trying so hard to fight against what people were saying about me. I wasn't what people were saying I was. But I wasn't a good person either. I felt so guilty about who I was."

He calls ketamine a "scummy drug," saying it disconnected his mind from his body, and adds: "It took my ego away. It took away who I was. I nearly killed myself. I just didn't care whether I lived or not. I was very close - I wanted to die."