Better Now is a song I wrote about a personal experience that I am sure many of us have had. The experience of being loved by someone when you are not yet able to fully realize and accept their love because you have yet to learn to love yourself. This song was reflecting back on a particular time in my life when I did not understand the value of receiving someone's love in the way that I do now.

The opening verse starts off with an apology:
"Sorry sorry sorry for the way I left it. I didn't mean it. Even if I meant it at the time."

The first line telling the listener that I wish I could take back the past. That I didn't mean the way I acted even if I "meant it at the time." I am sincerely apologizing for the actions of my past self.

The second verse goes on to reveal that this person treated me so well and that I just hadn't developed the kind of self love that could accept this kind of love and loyalty yet.:

"You were so good to me. I just, I just wasn't ready. I didn't love myself yet."

The song is about recognizing that instead of walking away or running away from love, that it is worth taking the time to try to heal and work on the things that are broken inside of yourself so you can be truly available to receive that love.

"I'm getting better now. I'm getting wiser now. I'm working some things out."

It is about the epiphany that this love is special and worth fighting for. This is a once in a lifetime kind of love and I want to be in a place to accept this.

Finally it is about asking for forgiveness and hoping that it is not too late. The pre-chorus asks:

"If you wanna try again? If you wanna love? Can you find it in your heart?"

I am leading with an open and honest heart to ask for forgiveness and I truly want to make things right.

" I wanna be good to you. I think I can be good for you."
I'm not asking him to continue in a relationship that is unhealthy but that I genuinely think I can be a good partner now.

The last line declares:
" I think I love myself now."
Meaning to explain that loving me is safe now because I love myself.

This part was really important for me because I wanted to reveal that I don't expect my lover to continue in something that doesn't give back in the way he deserves and that I have genuinely shifted into a place where I feel like I can love completely. I believe in creating a healthy co-existence and I would not put him through that kind of heartbreak again.

The song has an energy of hopefulness. Hope that it is not too late and that love is still available. It is about asking for forgiveness and believing that you are worthy of it. It is about not holding yourself in purgatory forever over the past but truly letting go and standing in the present. Yet it is also about recognizing that we don't have all the time in the world. If we take too long, sometimes we miss it. We miss our fate and we miss that opportunity for a once in a lifetime kind of love story that I think all of us hope for.

The music video reflects this story with my real life partner Adam, in which the song is about. There couldn't be any other person who could help me deliver this honest portrayal of our love story. It is my hope that the listener and the viewer can feel our history together. Most of all, I would love to give hope to anyone else out there in the same position and let them know that through healing yourself you make yourself more available to the experience of love. We can change and we can be better for it.. We can be "Better Now"�.