"Freakshow" has an interesting story behind it because it's one of the only songs I've written that was from a specific personal experience. One of the rules I have with Blue Eyed Christ lyrics is that they are intentionally vague, full of double entendre, and open to multiple interpretations. When you look at a song like "Last Days" it could be interpreted as being about how man is destroying the environment or about someone's addiction or various other themes.

"Freakshow" is about the only BEC song I can think of that is what I like to call a Story Song. The lyrics tell a specific story. Musically one of my favorite styles of Industrial Rock is the use of a triplet drum pattern. It just manages to give a really great swing and upbeat theatrical groove to the dark and sinister genre. I added the bass and guitars and realized I had stumbled upon something very catchy with a lot of hooks. Many BEC songs have at least three recurring hooks: A Pre Chorus, a Chorus, and a Post Chorus. "Freakshow" was one of these and I knew lyrically and melodically it had to be something different for me.

" . . . She came from the wrong side, always on the outside, she never really had a shot. But she was always pretty, and she got what she wanted, and she knew it's cause she's hot . . ."

I was going through some issues with my girlfriend at the time. I had ended up dating this very attractive younger girl and she had moved in with me. At first this was great. Who doesn't want to be with a hot girl in her early 20's? I quickly realized the reality and challenges of being in a relationship with a younger girl. You just can't expect to be at the same place and emotional maturity when it comes to dating.

" . . . She pulls you in and get's you under her spell, she's dangerous and has the looks that kill . . . "

We were in that cycle of breaking up and getting back together and a lot of unnecessary drama and chaos. Around this time I had realized I have this track that needs lyrics and since it's more accessible it may be interesting to do a story song loosely based on the relationship. Aside from the drama of the mix being the hardest of my career and undergoing last minute master and tempo changes�that's my version and I'm sticking too it!

" . . . It's not what you are, it's not what you need, it's not who you are, it's who you wanna be . . ."