Singled Out: Breaching Vista's Nervous

Nervous is about my own personal struggle to find and regain my confidence after a rather disheartening experience in a previous band. Line up changes within that band took me right out of my comfort zone but I went along with it for the sake of keeping the original line up together and as an effort to keep our friendship in tact. After some touring and then some time off, we regrouped to head into the studio. Our bassist-turned-lead-singer had gotten together with our guitarist to write all of the new material. I was completely left out of the writing process, which again was something I had always been a part of. The last straw was being told that I wasn't needed in the studio either. I lost my interest in the bands future and walked out. It was tough to walk away from something that I was so passionate about, and something I had invested so much of my life towards, but the part that hurt the most was having my best friends completely cut off my involvement.

So while the song may seem to come across as a confused relationship, it's really just me confronting the memories that tore down my confidence and reminding myself that while I lost some motivation, drive, and time in my pursuit of a music career, I'm now in a position where I can pick up where I left off. Nervous focuses on one of those cynically rearranged takes on the catchphrase "Two steps forward, One step back." My version is a cautious "One step forward, Two steps back" because I'm nervous about whether or not I can do this on my own. The song was originally written as a solo acoustic song back in 2006 when I finally decided to pull up my socks and start playing live again after half of a year of sitting around being bummed out. My Breaching Vista band mates really liked the song, and we spent about 2-3 years trying out various full band arrangements before settling on the Vera City album version.