Singled Out: Kenny Dubman's Wolf At The Door

70s style hard rocker Kenny Dubman recently released his new solo album "Reckless Abandon" and to celebrate we asked him to tell us about the song "Wolf At The Door". Here is the story:

I thought long and hard about whether I really wanted to talk openly about this song, as it's very personal and deals with a brutally rough time in my life. But screw it; it's over, right? Besides, it makes for good copy and people eat this sh*t up!

So....having not made the greatest relationship choices throughout my life, I found myself getting separated (and ultimately divorced) in 2011. It was a rough run, but I can honestly say that I was relieved to be getting out. Had I just stayed single and alone for a while and took the time to regroup, the "Wolf" story never would have happened. But instead, I went right into a rebound with someone I knew that was also divorcing; we were friends and got along quite well. At that point, I was still ignoring obvious warning signs that someone may not be a good choice for me to get involved with. As time went on, the relationship became more and more of struggle as more and of the dark side of my partner revealed itself. I was plugging leaks in a dam, and running out of fingers. It was about to crumble on top of me.

Right around the time that Hurricane Sandy struck NJ (Oct. 2012), I started to notice that I wasn't feeling so great. I had no idea what anxiety and depression were, having never experienced them before. It got worse over time, and I found myself in a full-blown clinical depression, barely able to pull myself out of bed to function in any capacity. I can't imagine that anything could possibly feel any worse; it was mentally AND physically agonizing. During this time, it became apparent what was causing this....and that I had to end it. It took over a year (more like 16 months) for me to start feeling like myself again....and when I did, the song ideas for "Reckless Abandon" began to flow. Happy to say that although it was brutal, this experience finally opened my eyes (at age 50) about how to preserve and protect myself in matters of the heart moving forward. And my re-emergence produced a record that I'm pretty damned proud of! I think that "Wolf At The Door" accurately captures the essence of how dark and scary this time of my life was.

Hearing is believing. Now that you know the story behind the song, listen for yourself and learn more about the album right here!

Singled Out: Kenny Dubman's Wolf At The Door

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